i think i'm getting very emotional these days. i have no idea why. i dun feel my happiness within me. usually, everyday is a happy day. but now. i dunno, i juz not so active, not so hyper, not so happy, etc. i dunno wad's happening. little things can cause tears to well up in my eyes and start rolling down my cheeks. it seems lyk i'm crying every other day. in the past, it onli seems lyk i cry once every other year. but not now. everything juz look simply boring and there's nothing which makes me jump for joy and fool arnd and stuff.

it's such a drastic change. i dunno wad to do. i dunno wad's happening. i feel so lost. and no one can save me. cos i dun even noe wad's happening, how would ppl noe if i myself dun even noe wads happening.