0419's exasperation!!

it's 4 in the morning and i still cant get to sleep even though i had been trying to sleep since 1.30am. damn. i always cant slepe well when i have exams. it's definitely psychological problem in my case. not that i dont want to sleep. i just cant sleep. i always emphasized the importance of sleeping enough is so much that it has become a kind of psychological pressure that i've unknowingly and unwillingly created for myself. i dont think i'm unprepared for the exam, but i'm not totally prepared as well. i think that's the root of all problems. so afterall it may not be because of my emphasis that cost me my sleep. and, i must point out that, the creepy and irritating insects are the next reason why i cant sleep properly. once, a damned insect crawled into my ear and i really got a phobia of insects getting into me. so, i truly understand why elephants are afraid of mouses cos they're scared of the mouses going into their ears. i'm very scared of the beetles, to be exact, that may loiter around in my room, crawling into my ear and so every night i put on ear pieces which are very uncomfortable when i want to sleep on my side. it does disrupts the "feel" to sleep. sigh.