j.rants

i cant feel for what i need to write for my japanese studies essay. i dont have a good idea what i want to write or need to write. i dont have a strong personal opinion nor a strong stand towards what i'm writing. it's difficult to craft out the essay, or rather my part. 

in my world, i just do things the way i deem right. i dont have answers to "why are you doing this or that" kind of question. therefore, i have only overall/ very summarized answers to why japanese are doing this currently but not doing that like that did in the past. blahhh! i cannot explain and elaborate how come they are doing this and that.

真的是超sian的 -_-

when i want to write in chinese, i cant think in chinese. when i want to write in english, i cant think in english. when i need to speak in english, i think in mandarin. when i need to speak perfect mandarin, english phrasing/words keep popping up. 你说不sian吗？